I Can't Believe It

Hi, i want to talk about my (friendship) life. Yeah, i love my ZANTANAAS, i love my MARS, i love my PERTENGAHAN, and etc. My life become colorfull because it. But, anytime i was angry with my friends. She is also part of ZANTANAAS. I can't mention her name. Yeah, she is lucky girl, she was succeed got a new boyfriend. And i was sad because her boyfriend is a my ....  (huh?!). Yeah, i like my bestfriend's boyfriend. Last time, i can't believe it. Maybe if (N) is not my bestfriends, i'll be haters. But and But, she is my bestfriend and than my girlfriend. I'm very confused for this. Should I?